when they call you crazy: leaving the 9-5 and finding your potential

“This is our big chance to see what people think of us. The real us. We have to show them there’s nothing to be afraid of. If we don’t get over our fears, they never will.”  ― Lisi Harrison

My parents stopped talking to me about school and work once they heard that I was likely not going to have a job my second year of graduate school. Understandably so – they were frustrated. They were just as frustrated as I was. My previous job working in the university as a graduate research assistant had provided for me. I received a full tuition waiver and funds to live very comfortably for 12 months. The news I received in May of 2016 shocked me out of my comfortable haze. Department funding had plummeted and anyone who was not a cheap student worker or a full-time employee got cut. Then I was hit with the reality that after sending out stacks of applications, I was not going to be employed with the university in the coming fall.

My initial reaction was panic. Even now, I still feel a pang of worry. I began to reflect on how the past year had gone for me and, admittedly, it was not the best. In the year that I had that job, both my physical and mental health were on the decline. After weighing 113-120 pounds for several years, my weight sky-rocketed to just over 150 pounds. I began to develop a number of negative health implications and eating habits. My mental health was anything but stable.

My job was stressful – anyone who has ever worked with women can vouch for me. My job was incredibly inconsistent as well. The stress of balancing a 20 hour work week, with 10 hours per week of overtime, and a full graduate student course load took its toll to say the least. As I reflected, however, I realized something. The only moments in the past year where I felt truly content and at peace were times when I was creating online content.

If you have read my about me page, you will have an idea of how I operate. I have been a writer since I first learned to write – almost literally. I have always been creative. When I came into the online world, I discovered countless creative outlets: such as blogging and YouTube. I became enthralled with the idea of “being your own boss” and “having an online job”. Even more so, I just loved the concept of creating content online. I started a YouTube channel several years back and poured my heart into it. If you’re curious, here is the link: Liz Loves. I had to stop filming videos after a while due to life circumstances, however YouTube was my passion for a very long time.

Before and after my YouTube experience, I had been blogging and writing with various mediums and in the past few months, I learned about making money while blogging. This, of course, intrigued me. The ability to make money from something I have been doing for years sounded like a dream come true to me. Around the time when I was learning of the world of self-employment, a speaker came into one of my summer courses and shared about her experience running an online counseling business. Needless to say, I was beyond excited to pick her brain and learn about her experience. Reflecting back on my excitement throughout the past several years about online work, I came to a conclusion.

I am okay not having a traditional job right now. I am actually happy that I don’t have one.

My parents, of course, were not jumping for joy when I shared this with them. Like good parents, they worried about the debt I would incur. They had the rational mindset that online work was not what I needed to be doing. I was worried about that too, but for once in my life, I wanted to go all in with my passions. I was tired of the “what ifs” and “maybes” and “could have beens.” I wanted to finally commit to something that brought me total joy: creating.

And so, coupled with my newfound love of simple living, this blog was born.

I ignored every other voice that was calling me stupid, crazy, and lazy (including my own voice), and I just started. I became okay not knowing where this would take me and excited because regardless of what happened, it was taking me somewhere and I was enjoying the ride. Life is way too short to have any more regrets than we already have, right? I’ve only just started this risky journey but I hope you will continue with me.

Thanks so much for reading – I really value your support!

Good luck to you, where ever you are on your journey!

Liz

xxx

Cover photo via Pinterest 

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  1. I’m not sure what it’s worth, but I find it truly admirable that you are not just accepting a life that you dislike.

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  2. Wow this left me speechless. This really describes my life right now. in many ways and very happy to know I am not alone.

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  3. You’re definitely not alone! I think the Internet is this new frontier for so many people that has so much potential. I’m right there with you!

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  4. Keep going. Never stop writing. Just keep going.

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